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A little mind of 4am.
Hello there.. Its 4am in the morning and i still can't sleep. I don't know why but something just bothering me. I don't know what's going on or what is bothering me.. I don't know what makes me sad.. Maybe it's just me being so sensitive or what.. Im just sad bcs my boyfriend forget a little things about me.. It feels not so good when your boyfriend forget something about you. Feels like he keeping something or someone from me or maybe he's just playing around me.. I dont know.. And guess what? I'm overthinking, thanks to you boyfriend i feel like you dont love me anymore and you only "kesian" for me. Sometimes i feel like you love me and vice versa. I know I've made the same shit mistakes. I tried to apologize. I tried. I know you tired with me, but I'm so sorry. It hurts when you keep bring up the same story, like i can't change to be a better or what. Man , you should kill me or what (daripada you keep bringing up the same story the same mistake I've done). God please make me strong enough. Or else i will stabbed myself to death. By the way, i love you boyfriend, I can't even think what would i do if you leave me. I'm sorry for mingling, its not my intention to do that. But darling.. I'm still here. With you. I've changed. I've changed to be a betteri girlfriend. I love you, always and forever.
A little opinion that wont hurt anyone.
Hello guys! How are you? It's been awhile saya afb (away from blog). Haha biasalah mood mood malas tu melimpah ruah so yea blog pun terabai. So it is. My STPM results was already out and cause more bad than good.. Hahahaha i guess so(?) So i know everyone pernah experience this thing kan? Kena tanya dalam group whatsapp family hows your result jadi macam mana result.. Yes i know my result a bit disappointed to everyone. They expected me to get kababoom result which makes me feel burdened. Im not disappointed with my result but i just feel sad. They seem like not appreciate my efforts. Yes i know saya tidaklah pandai macam orang lain. At least saya try. Saya try buat terbaik. Saya try tidak kasih hampa everyone. Macam mana juga kalau Tuhan sudah kasih result macam tu? Ada hikmahnya. But nowadays punya parent you know la kan how? Kalah sikit daripada orang lain sudah kena cop stupid lah apa lah like what? Everyone ada rezeki masing masing.. I still remember what my teacher said to us "there's a three thing in this world yang selalu kena cakap. Maut, jodoh, rezeki adalah rahsia Tuhan. Kita boleh cari jodoh, boleh cari rezeki tapi semua tu bergantung dengan usaha kita. More effort more you'll get. Tapi pernah dengar "kun faya kun"? To be or to exist.. Kalau Tuhan bilang A maka A lah.. Sebagai manusia kita tidak boleh lawan tu benda. So what i do is what i get. I wont blame anyone for making me like this. I wont. Yes i wont blame any eventho there's a people i should blame. But trust me. He's has a better plan. God has a better plan for me. So guys, if you think you result will destroy your dream, you're wrong. Trust me, God has a better plan for us. Maybe it's not a right time. But trust me, just wait and tadaa. You will find your way.
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